even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills your mind
you finally find, you and i collide

collide. howie day.

RAHH. im so confused.
about my feelings.

anyhow,
been reading Memoirs of a Geisha lately.
like evn tho i borrowed the book 723681361 mths
ago from wai.
seriously, u realise the world's nt tht pretty
and evryone aint tht nice aft all.
guess my life was jst too simple and comfortable
last time tht i didnt comprehend hw this damn
world operates.
now i do.
im sorry this sounds really cynical and stupid.
mayb evn absurd but to those who knw me well
will know how fcuking naive and gullible i am.
perhaps its cos im so used to having nice ppl ard me,
tho some hypocrites,
tht im really nt quite used to hostility.

i feel like ive aged a hundred yrs during these four mths.
didnt knw growing up was tht difficult.

but like Chiyo, (protagonist in tht bk)
im gna accept this harsh fact and deal with it.

on a brighter note,
i bought my first book ever OF MY OWN ACCORD.
tuesdays with morrie. :D

and i really agree tht books cnt be compared to
real life experience.
i mean like u might do well academically.
but u can perform like an idiot at work.
get wht i mean?
a pity i suck at both.